When the “It’s all good, you’ll do better next time, now go get some rest” is appropriate or when “pull yourself together and get to work, there is no later” is appropriate… 

is beautiful but made me gain weight..TT TT I need to seriously drop some… I WILL I WILL I WILL

and God’s grace..

and a crap ton of insecurities and flaws.

-Procrastinating.

-Breaking nights. It’s just not efficient. 

-practicing fast.

-caffeine energy drinks and junk food. 

Was the last concert of the semester but also the last concert of my first year in college as a music student. It’s really been just a crazy crazy year overall. Being a music student in a music school was overall an incredibly different experience. Studying and practicing music in such a way was an immense joy and I’ve learned so much and grew so much in just 1 year in college. All of which I do not doubt that God has worked through in my first year. I’ve had my first relationship, although it ended up weird.. it was still a memorable experience. Now I look back at the past 3 years looking back at where I’ve started and where I stand now.. and I feel like I’ve been living a completely new life. I can only hope further for the greater things God has in store for me. There is such a joy in the way God has worked through my heart these past 3 years. I’ve started taking composition lessons, played with the school orchestra, played with a professional orchestra, played some of the most difficult repertoire for marimba.. and the list can go on. But in the end, it was all the work of the Lord. And none of the things that happened matters compared to the greater joy of knowing Christ. Yes these are wonderful and I treasure every single moment. But I do accredit all these things to do the Lord and praise Him for it. Thank You Lord for a wonderful 3 years and years to come. I have great joy and hope for the things to come. Thank You. 

I am loved in the name of the Lord…

Despite my shortcomings and flaws.

There is nothing I can do that’ll win me God’s favor. 

nor will the things that I can’t do lose His favor. 

There is freedom in His Cross. 

He will provide for me. 

He will keep His promises. 

He will protect me. 

Why must I worry? 

Has he not provided for me all these years? 

financially, spiritually, emotionally, physically, socially. 

Why do I freak out in moments? 

He provides me the faith to believe. 

He provides me the wisdom to understand. 

He provides me the love to love. 

There is nothing I own nor anything I can do.

It’s all been done long ago. By Christ and His Cross.